Rest In Peace.

This morning I woke up from a dead sleep. It wasn't a nightmare, and I wasn't startled or scared, I just peacefully woke up, at 5:28am. My first thought after I looked at my phone was, "Why am I awake?", and then I thought to myself, "I need to go check on Shibby." She wasn't moving. I knew last night that she was probably going to pass sometime in the night, so before bed, I held her and touched her to my cheek, and she layed there very quietly, looking back at me. When I checked on her this morning after I woke up, she was still warm. She wasn't moving, but her eyes were barely open and moving slightly. I picked her up and she wasn't stiff at all. I held her, and finally, I closed her little eyes for her and they stayed closed.

I know I'm 31, and I know it's probably very silly for me to be sad about a hamster, but I really, really enjoyed her. She was funny and, if you can believe it, excellent company. I miss her, and I'm glad she's at peace, and tumor-free.

Shibby: if by any chance you are in a place where you not only have internet access, but have also been granted with the ability to read, I just wanted to say that I love you.....and thank you for being such a good friend. I'll never, ever forget you.

6.12.2008

October 17th. Do Not Disturb.

If you call me on October 17th, I will not answer. I might call you so you can hear me scream and holler and carry on, but I will not have a long conversation. I will be busy. My thirteen year old self is TOTALLY FREAKING OUT RIGHT NOW.

I told you I was going to go....and I'm going. YES.

Dang It!

Light painting Hearts
Originally uploaded by Lowry Lou

Love is altogether confusing. Don't panic, I'm fine, everything is fine...there's just been a lot of conversation lately between Rick and myself about where we are and what we're doing. It's very simple and very complicated, all at the same time. The weirdest thing of all is that there is a sense of peace about it. I have no idea what the future holds, but for the first time, I think that is sort of ok. I am thankful that Rick is able to communicate his thoughts and feelings, and has been honest with me about them. I am thankful that he is open, albeit cautious. He is the first person I've ever met that cares enough about me to not want to take something that he can't give in return just yet. These are good qualities. He is precious, and I am blessed that he is a part of my life.

I'm sorry I haven't been a very good blogger lately. As I mentioned earlier, there are some projects I have in the works that I need to tend to, and they've been taking up my time. Rick and I have spent quite a bit of time together as well, thus all the conversation-having.

I can't complain. Life is good. If you are the praying type, I could use some.

I am going to finish cleaning my closet (puke) and then I am going to maybe take a nap or something. Maybe ride my bike. Or do some art.

I have the internet today! It has been so flaky lately!!